1. |
UFO Party
04:02
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Waiting for that final day I get the unmarked grave
So here’s my last reward for years of suffering
Too blind to tell, I sank this fatal knife in myself
Buried alive with my thoughts long ago
Suburban mausoleum I once called home
No doors and no windows allowed
Surviving on whispers and rumors for now
See all these places that I used to know
Withered and crumbling memories made of stone
What’s left but the deafening sound
Of emptiness filling the air all around
The stars I used to believe in
Nothing but satellites, uninspiring machines, deceived
Waiting for that final day I get the unmarked grave
So here’s my last reward for years of suffering
Too blind to tell, I sank this fatal knife in myself
Poorly written poetry, a worthless eulogy
With zero volunteers to carry me away
Too blind to tell, I sank this fatal knife in myself
Always a sucker for heart wrenching hope
But somehow terrified that I’ll die alone
My fault not wanting to be found
Hide and seek champion, 3 decades down
Lack of attention, I’m starved to the bone
A self-inflicted, kind of tragic syndrome
Autopsy shows nothing resounds
In my head the echoes have all faded out
The stars I used to believe in
Nothing but satellites, uninspiring machines, deceived
Waiting for that final day I get the unmarked grave
So here’s my last reward for years of suffering
Too blind to tell, I sank this fatal knife in myself
Poorly written poetry, a worthless eulogy
With zero volunteers to carry me away
Too blind to tell, I sank this fatal knife in myself
I was always too blind to tell, I sank this fatal knife in myself
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Nostalgia
Born out of
Cities that don't exist
Don't look, don't speak
Why don't you wanna be
Around me now
Breathe toxins
Bleed tension
Household built of stress
Don't look, don't speak
No, I don't wanna be me
Drowned in doubt
Twenty-four hours awake and I'm numb
Where are the dreams I used to love
Down at the bottom, no way back up
This time
I'm giving up
I'm giving up
Heartbeat skips again and again
Anxiety so loud
I'm giving up
The self-loathing party never ends
So scream with me as we go down
Relinquished to the night
I told you I'll be fine
Feels more alive
Cuz now I've decided
Tonight in my mind
I'm giving up
What I want's
Not enough
Guess I'm just obsessed
Don't look, don't speak
Why don't you wanna be
Around me now
Relive some
Old trauma
Things you should forget
Don't look, don't speak
No, I don't wanna be me
Drowned in doubt
Forty-eight hours, sleep wouldn't come
Fated to be the afterthought
A walking cadaver, drained of all blood
Inside
I'm giving up
I'm giving up
Heartbeat skips again and again
Anxiety so loud
I'm giving up
The self-loathing party never ends
So scream with me as we go down
Relinquished to the night
I told you I'll be fine
Feels more alive
Cuz now I've decided
Tonight in my mind
I'm giving up
Cuz now I've decided
Tonight in my mind
Twenty-four hours awake and I'm numb
Where are the dreams I used to love
Down at the bottom, no way back up
This time
Forty-eight hours, sleep wouldn't come
Fated to be the afterthought
A walking cadaver, drained of all blood
Inside
Heartbeat skips again and again
Anxiety so loud
The self-loathing party never ends
It never ends
Relinquish to the night
I told you I'll be fine
Feels more alive
Cuz now I've decided
Tonight in my mind
I'm giving up
Cuz now I've decided
Tonight in my mind
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3. |
Ignorance Adrift
03:54
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The sun goes out, colder hearts now reign
They’re always hunting down our last mortality
We’re easy prey
We’re running now and they’ll make us pay
Producing every cure we’ve all been forced to take
They know your face
We’re never satisfied, the endless
Games and the chasing
What happens now If I end the games we play, the chase?
Illusions, seduce us
We’ve got no backup plans, all stuck in our own heads
Illusions, we’re all entranced
Caught in a night we never want to end
We all break down and sometimes we stay
Down underneath the ground just hiding far away
The easy play
Akin, no doubt, but we’re not the same
Enticing us with sounds of love, I can’t relate
They know our names
We’re never satisfied, the endless
Games and the chasing
What happens now If I end the games we play, the chase?
Illusions, seduce us
We’ve got no backup plans, all stuck in our own heads
Illusions, we’re all entranced
Caught in a night we never want to end
Never want to end
Caught in a life we never want to end
Never want to end
Caught in a life we never want to
Illusions, seduce us
Illusions, seduce us
We’ve got no backup plans, all stuck in our own heads
Illusions, we’re all entranced
Caught in a night we never want to end
Illusions, seduce us, we’re all entranced
Illusions, we’re all entranced
Caught in a night we never want to end
They know your face
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4. |
Winter Soldier
04:04
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With every step I hear you calling out
Are we falling out
You said I'm with you till the end of the line
But would you scream my name
Blood soaked outside in the pouring rain
I'll make you pay for this mess you've made
I'll make you pay for this mess you've made
If you saw me in a dream
Would you pass me by
Would you even know its me
After all this time
After every promise made
Every single lie
You have to settle this with me
Thought we knew one another
So what's left to say
(I'll make you pay for this mess you've made)
Thought we could hold one another
There's no other way
(I'll make you pay for this mess you've made)
With every step I hear you calling out
Are we falling out
You said I'm with you till the end of the line
But would you scream my name
Blood soaked outside in the pouring rain
I'll make you pay for this mess you've made
Thought we knew one another
So what's left to say
(I'll make you pay for this mess you've made)
Though we kill one another
There's no other way
I'll make you pay for this mess you've made
With every step I hear you calling out
Are we falling out
With every step I hear you calling out
Are we falling out
You said I'm with you till the end of the line
But would you scream my name
Blood soaked outside in the pouring rain
I'll make you pay for this mess you've made
(It's all we ever dream)
(It's all we ever)
With every step I hear you calling out
Are we falling out
You said I'm with you till the end of the line
But would you scream my name
Blood soaked outside in the pouring rain
I'll make you pay for this mess you've made
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5. |
Hot Chocolate
04:27
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Eternal night, but we don’t need sleep
Can’t shut your eyes because out here all lights are shining
Everyone’s dying, but nobody leaves
Lamenting skies pouring down, this city’s been crying
Are you searching for another pretty face? False angels, so fatal
Are you really going non-stop, till you got it now you caught it, just lose it on top
One more step away, you can finally taste it, you made it
Feel it flowing through your veins, rivers of fire, desire
There’s no denying, you’re in it too deep
Don’t try to hide it because out here all lights are shining
We’re out of time, our future’s too bleak
Electric skylines falling down, this city’s been crying
Are you searching for another pretty face? False angels, so fatal
Are you really going non-stop, till you got it now you caught it, just lose it on top
One more step away, you can finally taste it, you made it
Feel it flowing through your veins, rivers of fire, desire
All this worth the pain, for so long you’ve waited, now take it
Feel it closing in again, thirsting like fire, desire
All lights are shining
Are you searching for another pretty face? False angels, so fatal
Are you really satisfied to end it all this way?
Are you searching for another pretty face? False angels, so fatal
Are you really satisfied to end it all this way?
One more step away, you can finally taste it, you made it
Feel it flowing through your veins, rivers of fire, desire
All this worth the pain, for so long you’ve waited, now take it
Feel it closing in again, thirsting like fire, desire
False angels, so fatal
False angels, so fatal
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6. |
Cold Blooded
03:38
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Tucked away, far away again
Never should have walked these halls at night
Tell me why I deserve this
Follow footsteps dripping wet with spite
Hide away, far away again
Can’t escape the grasp of fate or time
Six feet down feels like heaven
Hell is knowing that you’re still alive
Stuck in the gravity
Pull me out, don’t pull me under
Am I worth saving?
Lost within a dream
And now she comes for me
Won’t I fade just like the others?
Ivory hands, choking
Find me in your dreams
Cold blooded affection, love me like a ghost
Hoping there comes a day you can forgive me
I’m here waiting
Hold me so endless, tracing every bone
Watching as I decay, relive my mistakes
Right here waiting
Stuck in the gravity
Pull me out, don’t pull me under
Am I worth saving?
Lost within a dream
And now she comes for me
Won’t I fade just like the others?
Ivory hands, choking
Find me in your dreams
Cold blooded affection, love me like a ghost
Hoping there comes a day you can forgive me
I’m here waiting
Hold me so endless, tracing every bone
Watching as I decay, relive my mistakes
Right here waiting
I’m here waiting
Right here waiting
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7. |
At the End of Everything
03:48
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I’d give every moment spent with you
For one chance to finally disprove
That I’m nothing special at all
Emotions like glass
At the end of everything, hold on to anything
Always held me back
At the end of everything, hold on to me
From victim to villain, it’s a consequence
Of seeing these visions where I’m not useless
Every day feels perfect, every night I’m downing pills just to sleep
Come lay down, daydream with me
Tonight, promise me you won’t be late
Attend my debut symphony of shame
Tell me I’m not special at all
My heart breaks at last
At the end of everything, hold on to anything
Lullaby of death
At the end of everything, hold on to me
From victim to villain, it’s a consequence
Of seeing these visions where I’m not useless
Every day feels perfect, every night I’m downing pills just to sleep
Come lay down, daydream with me
From victim to villain, it’s a consequence
Of seeing these visions where I’m not useless
It’ll feel so perfect when I bring this city down to its knees
Come lay down, daydream with me
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Late night
You told me that you're done with this game
It's 3am and I go searching your name
It's toxic, but I'll do it the same
The same
Late at night, it's toxic, but I'll do it
Late at night
Late at night
Late at night, it's toxic, but I'll do it
Toxic
Through a screen, feel your chemistry
But I'm just another face, not a memory (meant to be)
It's a blood pact promise that I made with myself
Yeah, my friends all tell me that I need to get help
Digital make believe, repeating every word you sung about
Classical tragedies, running through my feed, and it makes me wanna
Take back every word I typed on my phone, ‘cause you’ll say it’s in my head, screaming Leave me alone (me alone)
Late night
You told me that you're done with this game
It's 3am and I go searching your name
It's toxic, but I'll do it the same
The same
Make me your enemy, put me on every blacklist that you make
If it’s not meant to be, you could set me free, and
Know I'd take it back… maybe I won't do it again
You can call me when you want, maybe more than just friends? (Than just friends)
Late at night, it's toxic, but I do it
Late night
You told me that you’re done with this game
It's 3am and I go searching your name
It's toxic, but I’ll do it the same
The same
I try to find a way to forget the pain
But every thought of you, it drives me insane
It's toxic, but I’ll do it the same
The same
The same
I come undone, each thread you pull cuts deep and now I can’t
Outrun this mess I’ve made
Can’t take it back, baby, ‘cause I’ll do it again
You can call me when you want, maybe more than just friends?
Late night
You told me that you’re done with this game
It's 3am and I go searching your name
It's toxic, but I’ll do it the same
The same
Late night
You told me that you’re done with this game (this game)
It's 3am and I go searching your name (name)
It's toxic, but I’ll do it the same
The same
The same
I try to find a way to forget the pain
But every thought of you, it drives me insane
It's toxic, but I’ll do it the same
The same
The same
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9. |
Chrysalis
03:52
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Hold still, I can see through you
Believe in nothing but bad news
The breathing had slowed, gasping below
Emotions implode, it’s not reality
Cry if it’s hurting you
Regret, there’s nothing left to do
There’s no way to cope with this
I’m hoping I don’t explode, this can’t be happening
I don’t think I’m ready for this
Can I put it off? I’m counting
Hour by hour gone
Couldn’t stop myself from breaking
Worst of all I can’t replace the
Hours, the hours lost
Stay with me tonight
Please don’t leave me behind
Heart beats just a bit too soon
Shaking, lost and so confused
The breathing had slowed, gasping below
Emotions implode, it’s not reality
Dread the day I always knew
Lay here, I’ll wait it out with you
There’s no way to cope with this
I’m hoping I don’t explode, this can’t be happening
I don’t think I’m ready for this
Can I put it off? I’m counting
Hour by hour gone
Couldn’t stop myself from breaking
Worst of all I can’t replace the
Hours, the hours lost
Stay with me tonight
Please don’t leave me behind
Stay with me tonight
Please don’t leave me behind
Hour by hour gone
Hours, the hours lost
Stay with me tonight
Please don’t leave me behind
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10. |
Hold on to Anything
03:18
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I’d give every wasted day with you
For one chance to show what we all knew
That I’m nothing special at all
Emotions like glass
At the end of everything, hold on to anything
Always held me back
At the end of the everything, hold on to me
From victim to villain, it’s a consequence
Of seeing these visions where I’m not useless
Every day feels worthless, every night I’m calling death in my sleep
Come burn down this world with me
Tonight, promise me you won’t be late
Attend my final symphony of shame
Tell me I’m not special at all
My heart beat goes flat
At the end of everything, hold on to anything
Lullaby of death
At the end of everything, hold on to me
From victim to villain, it’s a consequence
Of seeing these visions where I’m not useless
Every day feels worthless, every night I’m calling death in my sleep
Come burn down this world with me
From victim to villain, it’s a consequence
Of seeing these visions where I’m not useless
Every day feels worthless, every night I dream I’m finally set free
Come burn down this world with me
Come burn down this world with me
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11. |
A Lesson in Futility
04:10
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Acknowledge the open mouth but ignore virtue dripping out
A thirst in an endless drought, they’ll kill us all
A message now multiplied what feels like several thousand times
I’ll hear yours if you’ll hear mine, against all odds
We’re all screaming
Are we all just noise, static voices
Always screaming
Cancel out the noise, the voice
Are you speaking, can you hear me?
No one believes me anyways, I guess I’m better never chasing the dream
Can’t you hear me as I fade away?
There’s always someone else to blame, don’t interrupt me when I’m digging my grave
Can’t you hear me as I fade away?
I’m willing to close the shades, it’s dismissive but feels safe
My only choice left to make, it’s all I’ve got
Your words say you’re on your own, signals censored, the truth postponed
Save your tears you’re not alone, it’s all you’ve got
We’re all screaming
Are we all just noise, static voices
Always screaming
Cancel out the noise, the voice
Are you speaking, can you hear me?
No one believes me anyways, I guess I’m better never chasing the dream
Can’t you hear me as I fade away?
There’s always someone else to blame, don’t interrupt me when I’m digging my grave
Can’t you hear me as I fade away?
Are you speaking, can you hear me?
Are you speaking, can you hear me?
No one believes me anyways, I guess I’m better never chasing the dream
Can’t you hear me as I fade away?
Are you speaking, can you hear me?
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12. |
Everything is Perfect
03:37
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Am I real? Will I bleed? Was it worth it?
Hold me close, tell me everything is perfect
It’s in the code, it’s in my head
Broken flashbacks, every attack, fades to black for me
It’s in the wires, it wants me dead
And I’m yearning for an answer, hard truth, simulated
Am I real? Will I bleed? Was it worth it?
Hold me close, tell me everything is perfect
No, I can't be the only one
Feeling lost, with nowhere to run
In the dark, reaching for a purpose
Hold me close, tell me I’m not worthless
Every night, it's a loaded gun
Pull the plug, on what I’ve become
Bleeding out, maybe I deserve it
Hold me close, tell me everything is perfect
A fractured ghost in this machine
With a hack that, tracing each path, brings you back to me
I can’t escape, this neon dream
And if anything could happen, two souls, vindicated
(And if anything could happen, two souls)
No, I can't be the only one
Feeling lost, with nowhere to run
In the dark, reaching for a purpose
Hold me close, tell me I’m not worthless
Every night, it's a loaded gun
Pull the plug, on what I’ve become
Bleeding out, maybe I deserve it
Hold me close, tell me everything is perfect
It’s a curse, that I can’t outrun
Cut the cord, and I come undone
Take a look, can't you see I'm hurting
‘Cause inside, of my mind, I'm burning
Every night, it's a loaded gun
Pull the plug, on what I’ve become
Bleeding out, maybe I deserve it
Hold me close, tell me everything is perfect
Am I real? Will I bleed? Was it worth it?
Hold me close, tell me everything is perfect
Is it original sin that makes me plead, me plead?
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